When I turned 24, my parents arranged my marriage with a stranger through
honey night scare
As my wedding day approached, my nervousness was also increasing day by day! I was scared and nervous because of the name of Suhaag Raat. Virgin
that night has finally come
But as time approached, I found myself in bed with a man who had not even touched me once before going to sleep. “Marriage made me really tired”, this is what he said before turning his back to me and snoring. I was a little relieved, because it gave me at least a day to be with him before we both got intimate. But the next day and many more days after that, instead of loving or touching me at night, he would sleep soundly and start snoring. Maybe he’s giving himself and me some time to get to know each other before having sex. And my heart was pounding with this thought.
a caring person
Vishal was a caring person; Also sensible, sincere and very talkative! I loved sitting with him with a cup of tea and talking about my childhood memories. He would bring me gifts and sometimes even roses. His actions were in keeping with his caring personality and to be honest, I was overjoyed to know my husband.
We didn’t have sex for months
Many months passed and I was already arrested in Vishal’s love, but it was surprising that till now Vishal had not made physical relation with me even once nor had even one kiss in private! It was a little weird, because all I knew was that men love to have sex. But one day, the giant kissed me under the blue sky, and before I could taste it, he was immediately gone. His expression looked terrifying, but he quickly hid it well. She thought I wouldn’t notice, but I did. For the next few days, I made several subtle attempts to get closer to him but each one was unsuccessful. He was taking care of me, but I realized that he had not fallen in love with me yet.
Even after a year our marriage was incomplete
Slowly months passed in a year, Vishal had not even touched me yet. It had been a year since our marriage, we were married, but as husband and wife we were still incomplete and perhaps our marriage was incomplete. Like other marriages I knew of, ours was the first one that was not perfect. Despite being caring, he was formal. He never let me feel that he loved or wanted me.
Vishal’s going abroad and I wait for him
Then as soon as Vishal got a job abroad, he left me here and went abroad. I waited patiently for him, as I still hoped that this time, when he comes back months later, he will yearn for me, and we can finally embrace the beautiful relationship of love and passion. Unfortunately, things didn’t turn out as I had planned for them to happen. Even after coming back after a year and a half, he did not want to be intimate with me.
what does he want after all
Is he gay or disabled? Did he love someone else? Various questions were swirling in my mind. And no matter how sad it may sound, but I was slowly falling out of love with him. Despite all my efforts to connect with Vishal, they really made no effort to maintain our bond as a married couple. And now, at this point, everything is so hazy that I no longer know what to do.
– Niharika Upreti